These last days have been rough for me. Try thinking of everything you know in a daily lifestyle that never changes. Think of the people in your life and how much they mean to you, the respect you have for them, and what they bring to your life. Now turn all that shit around. Things you thought you knew LIES. People you thought you knew PHONY. Worst of all the trust you had for people GONE.
The creativity i once had as kid that could make anything right out of thin air. I could go out for hours even days at a time taking pictures of stop signs, graffiti that i seen around the neighborhood, even people whos faces i probably never see again. I was a feeling out contribution knowing that i could make anything to change the daily routine of any stranger. Meeting people who noticed you. Noticed everything that went on in your head and tried every way to understand it. I was different from the other kids my age. Stopped going to school because i noticed in 10th grade the trap that society had set for me. I wanted to make my own destiny and start my own career where i was doing everything i wanted and loved everyday. My mother didn't agree with what i wanted to do but i wasn't going to let anything stop me.
I started attending Manchester craftsman guild located on the north side of Pittsburgh. It was here with the help of the instructors that my creativity and chances at making a life without a high school diploma could exceed. Attending the guild for over a year taking classes that taught me things that i would never have a chance at learning from my neighborhood school. A film crew came along from Chicago to work at the guild. I had the opportunity to work with them side by side to see what their lives were like. I became close with one of the members of the crew who i found was alot like me. He told me about how he could take every moment of his college life back. He told me how much of a waste of time it was and how much debt he now owes from those eight years. i asked him without his degree he would have the job he has now right? He began told tell me about significance of a portfolio. His portfolio had been better and more talent filled than people 3 times his age who went to school for photography and video. He told me the job he has now never once asked him about what kind of degree he had. They seen his portfolio and knew this was the guy they wanted.
Since then school has never been a worry to me. Just because you dont have school doesn't mean you dont the knowledge so i began to work on my portfolio day and night. My Instagram became cluttered with people who were waiting to see what i was gonna post next. Next level was my mindset. I only wanted to put out work that didn't compare to other artist but greatly separated from them. I wanted to Tony Duff to be recognized and never compared to anyone else. I meet this guy Jazz one day. Jazz noticed my skills and wanted the best for me. I got kicked out my house due to family problems at 17. Jazz looked out for me and took me in as a brother without ever asking for a penny back. Jazz knew he was form Pittsburgh, but California was his heart. He always had a dream about going back in the near future and he wanted to take me along. Being 17 and only doing photography for less than and having an offer to go to the other side of the country to do what your in love with is huge. I told my mom and she began to brag to every person who would listen. Months go by and Jazz and myself are weeks from going to California to start a new life out there. Until i foolishly began a love life.
My love-life began to separate me from my fired and ultimately separate me from California. I t was a decision at the time, her or California. To be someone like me and to always believe in true love and as long as you have love everything will work out i choose the love. Steve heartbroken from the decision began to fade from my life slowly but surely. The love was my new life now and thats how it was going got be from now on.
Long story short the love life taught be thing for the better alot of things for the worse. Trust was established but also crushed to nothing. Feeling that i had faded away from the person i am today. My creativity be to fall slowly being that it was replaced with love and compassion i had for my other half. The relationship ended and i look back on everything now and just wonder what could have been. What California would be like. How my life could have been. The money i could have been making, the things i could have experienced. All i could do now it just wonder.
Im writing to just ask for everyone who knows me and knows of the things i can do and what i can be in life to just bare with me. That goes for my followers, family, and anyone who knows the name Tony Duff. I have been reborn and alot of new content will be on the way real soon. I know alot more than i knew when i first started Tony Duff and know that i can apply all that new knowledge to my work and just the person i am i just asked that you to look for another Tony Duff. A better one.